Secret Sacrifice

    Scripture Study

Joel 2:1-2, 12-17 or Isaiah 58:1-12
Psalm 51:1-17
2 Corinthians 5:20b – 6:10
Matthew 6:1-6, 16-21

About a week before Ash Wednesday my mind fills with fruitless excuses for why I refuse to sacrifice XYZ for this year’s Lent. No Young & the Restless, no Cheetos, no fast food, no TV, no man watcing, no food, no flirting…By the time today comes around I’ve talked myself out of doing anything.

But I’ve been going through some things this year, and I don’t think I can just let this season go by without getting serious about my salvation. Because whether I want to or not God is taking my life to the next spiritual level. Good friends aren’t good to hang around
I didn’t walk away from him, because of Lent or Valentine’s Day. I had to do it for God and for her, and that hurts.

I called it my Secret Sacrifice until just now.

Every hour I want to call him and tell him to come home. I want to hop in my truck and go pick him up. But if I do, then Selah has no home. Then I have no home. Then what’s the point?

We talk about Lent and making sacrifices to God. Right now I’m thinking about my sacrifice for my daughter’s soul.

Parenthood is another Secret Sacrifice.

When I became a mother I had to stop being stupid. Let me let you in on a little secret–sometimes playing dumb is quite refreshing. But you can’t play dumb raising a daughter. Another secret sacrifice.

Seems like I sacrifice myself every day, so why should I take these particular 40 days and sacrifice some more?

Because there are some sacrifices I can’t talk about. Some things I want to do and I need help. I need to get him out of my system. Then there are sins I am too afraid to conjure up, because all of them happened when we were together. Every last one.

But I still want them out of my body. I’m ready to learn a new side of God. My spirit needs to run free.

So for this Lent I’m giving up me. I’m giving up that girl, who didn’t think that she deserved to be married to a man who new God for himself, who wanted Selah to adore God now. By the end of this season that girl will be gone. Her secrets will have been set free. And the only sacrifices that she would accept were ones that begged for God showing his face again.

Today check out Sharon Liner’s Secret Sacrifices CD, which will be release on March 3, 2007.


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